Saturday, October 10, 2026

A Tribute to Papu Bal On National Teacher's Day

Baltazar Abad Calimag
August 10, 1950 - October 4, 2-26
Papa drew his last breath on October 4, the eve of National Teachers’ Day. I was in Cebu with the DepEd team of facilitators, resource speakers, and crew, preparing for a three-day workshop on creating and crafting storybooks and instructional materials. During the opening ceremony of the workshop, we offered a prayer for Papa. What a sweet and thoughtful gesture to honor his life in the most simple but poignant way.

Papa taught in the Philippine public school system for three decades and a few years. For public school teachers to pray for one

of their own is a beautiful full-circle moment. I was determined to give my professional best during my session for Day 1. My flight back to Manila was rebooked for that night.

I’m proud of my Papa for being a public school teacher. I often begin my workshops with DepEd by saying this. I grew up witnessing the hard work and resilience of teachers in the public school system. And though I am teaching in the private school system now, I consider myself kin and kind. After all, I went to PNU for my bachelor’s degree and a proud holder of a UP Diliman ID number.
To see a host of public school teachers who came from all 15 regions of the Philippines brought me back to the teacher that Papa was, and to the many years of service that came with his life in the public school system. Most notable was the moment when he would serve during local and national elections. As a child, I often wondered why public school teachers put their lives on the line during elections. When I passed the licensure exam for teachers and took my oath, I realized the integrity that teachers carry. And this factors in their role during elections. For each ballot cast holds a truth and one’s freedom of choice. And it is the licensed teacher who guards the sanctity of this vote.
In 1986, Mama and I watched the ballot count at Papa’s precinct. I was 12 years old, and my mother was progressive enough to allow me to witness a piece of history that would become part of a bigger narrative of national importance. It was exciting to hear the election watchers cheer for their respective candidates. After a few hours, Papa’s precinct counted Aquino as the winner.
What followed were historic events that led to the People Power Revolution. That night, Mama waited for Papa to come home. We were glued to the television. There were no mobile phones or social media fanfare. We depended on RPN 9 and GMA 7 to deliver the news. Mama stayed up all night, and when I woke up in the morning, Papa still wasn’t home. It was only later in the day when he arrived, tired and hungry. But I remember him carrying a quiet strength that needed no explanation.
He did his duty for family and country.
This is the story of my Papa that I will keep close to me. I will bring it with me to every workshop and training I develop and facilitate for teachers in both the private and public school systems.
This is one way I can honor my Papa and the inheritance he left me. Acts of service. Quiet strength. Integrity that is never easy to do.
Rest in God’s eternal love, Papa Bal.

Sunday, October 4, 2026

Bangtan Hermana Notes: Between You and Me: Namjooning is Life

When RM talked to the press at the SFMOMA San Francisco Museum of Modern Art last September 29, he was sincere, vulnerable, and the happiest I have seen him with the media in a while. I also enjoy seeing him be, become, and keep becoming. This art exhibit, which he co-curated, feels like a full circle of what he has always written about in his songs and in many of BTS’s music: agency. Choice. The right to decide who you are beyond what an industry has made of you. You can’t control my shit. And for years, he has been insistent and persistent in asserting the person behind the idol persona of an industry that dictates and manufactures.

So much of that has echoed through his work, from BTS’s music to his solo albums. And now, through art, he gets to make another kind of statement. It’s not look at me, but come and look at what I have been looking at. And in art, we find our truest humanity.
So when he said that South Korea experienced losses through colonization and the speed with which it reared its tail when it became a democracy, it also produced and created bright and shiny things, I took that thought with me. I am walking through a season of loss and losing.

With Papa’s inevitable journey to the other side, I find myself painting, creating, making pottery, and just listening to my body. I don’t know where this will lead me. I just know that being in the here and now is the better way to live this one given life to the fullest.
Here’s to more Namjooning in the future!

Saturday, October 3, 2026

Bangtan Hermana Notes: ARMY Glow Up: I Stayed. I Waited. I Glowed Up. 💜

Thursday, October 1, 2026

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Sunday, September 27, 2026

Bangtan Hermana Notes: ARMY Glow Up: What We Make While We Wait

In 2022, while BTS began their military chapter, I made a promise to myself through the ARMY Glow Up campaign: if I was going to wait, I would not simply wait. I would learn something, make something, nurture a skill, and keep my creative fire alive.

That was how this cyanotype began with Indigo, with Namjoon’s Wild Flower, and with my own curiosity about turning light, plants, and chemistry into an image. The first print experimental. Then came a digital reproduction with the help of Sin So. I then framed a version of it and eventually I was able to write a poem for it: “a flower does not bloom for beauty alone / it is for bearing fruit / a truth laden with thorns.” I was simply making, learning, and playing through a season of waiting, loss, grief and holding on. I didn’t know where else the work would go.
And now, look. 🥹💜
@atta_joy_ca an ARMY in San Francisco noticed my cyanotype prints and has shared the newest reproduction of this particular print, Wild Flower. And it was reprinted with my permission, as part of the gift bags prepared for the press preview of RM’s exhibition at the San Francisco Musuem of Modern Art next month. From a little cyanotype experiment in the Philippines to San Francisco. Wow. This is what ARMY Glow Up means to me. We don’t just wait for our artists to return. We use the waiting to become more capable of making the things we dream of making.
BTS were growing in their own chapter. So was I. So were we.
This one found its way to San Francisco. And at RM’s curated art exhibit at SFMOMA, no less. Who knows where the next one will go? 💙💜

Monday, September 21, 2026

Light House Diary Entry #92: On the 54th Anniversary of Martial Law and the Role of Libraries

Today, September 21, is the 54th Anniversary of Martial Law.

One of our teachers borrowed “The Conjugal Dictatorship” from our library a few months back and I remembered He noticed that we have two copies. One is considerably thicker than the other. I explained that the thicker one is the revised and annotated edition, with annotations, references, and updates added decades after the original publication. It reminded me that sometimes, the most interesting thing about a book is not simply what it tells us, but how later readers and scholars continue the conversation around it.
An annotation does not erase an author’s perspective, bias, or authorial intent. Instead, it gives the reader another layer through which to examine the original text.

We can ask:
What was written?
Who wrote it?
When and why was it written?
What evidence was available then? What has since been added, clarified, challenged, or contextualized?

In this sense, having two editions side by side becomes an exercise in historical literacy: we learn to read not just the text, but also the history surrounding the text.
This is one of the most important things libraries can offer, especially when we encounter difficult or contested histories. We don’t have to tell readers what to think. We can give them the books, the context, the questions, and the space to think critically for themselves. History deserves readers who can look beyond a single narrative and not by pretending that bias can be completely removed, but by learning to recognize perspectives, examine evidence, encounter other sources, and keep asking questions.

Thursday, September 17, 2026

Bangtan Hermana Notes: Little Pockets of Light

What began as an ARMY Glow Up project in 2022 has become a habit of meditation. I turn to cyanotype printing on days when I’m beat, anxious or unwell. And that’s what I did.

I must have caught something viral last weekend and now I’m nursing a bad cold, allergies and back pain. I’m not new to this so I pulled out my meds; took a leave off work; and slept as much as I can. Willing myself to feel better even more, I turned to my cyanotype kit and allowed the sun, water and time to heal me.
I have been waiting for the perfect sunlight, and a clear blue sky. There should be no wind at all.
Yesterday morning, all three converged. The time was just right! Thank you, Nature!
ARMY Daughter gave me flowers last Mother’s Day. I left some violet ones to dry in room temperature and they still look lovely. I’ve been meaning to catch them in light and in shadow. The moment arrived and the prints were beautiful.
And somewhere between arranging the flowers, waiting for the sun, watching the images slowly emerge in water, and simply being present with the process, I realized something: healing is not only found in medicine and rest. Sometimes, healing also happens when we make something with our hands. When we slow down enough to notice light, shadow, water, time, and the small transformations happening in front of us.
This is another gift of making art. It gives the mind somewhere quiet to go.



So, for Namjoon’s birthday month, I’m celebrating this little practice that began because of ARMY Glow Up and has grown into something much more personal: a way of pausing, breathing, making, and finding my way back to myself.
To make art is to pay attention. To pay attention is to be present. And sometimes, being present is its own kind of healing.
Thank you, Joon, for reminding us, in so many ways, to love ourselves, keep growing, and live well in this one beautiful life. May we all keep making little pockets of light.
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